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[18 May 2004|02:53pm]
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[18 May 2004|02:33pm]
Im engaged to spyder. Jim DiAngelo. Blah.
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[19 Feb 2004|12:31pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

God this song depresses the shit out of me. Its the song i listen to when im crying... Im listening to it

Goo Goo Dolls= Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest thing to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

1 CuT| sLiT mY wRiSt

[19 Feb 2004|12:18pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I feel really weird right now. Like im all lovey-dovey or something. Or maybe im depressed? My emotions are weird. It feels like my entire body is building up energy or something. Ha maybe im just anxious to talk to someone...

<3 Courtney

sLiT mY wRiSt

[19 Feb 2004|11:40am]
sLiT mY wRiSt

*sighs* [19 Feb 2004|11:32am]
[ mood | weird ]

Im going to take my survey all over again... yes iam that bored.Jesus listening to metallica reminds me of my ex brian... we had sex to metallica alot... *ahem* It kind of makes me sad.

001. What is your name? Courtney
002. Spell your name backwards. Yentruoc
003. Date of birth: im almost 18
004. Male or female? female
005. Astrological sign: Taurus
006. Nicknames: Freak, Corndog, Rooster (dont ask), Necro, Nero, Pyre (a abbreviation of vampyre), Pyro.... *so many!*
007. Occupation? Im a student, isnt that always fun?
008. Height: 5'5
009. Weight: 150
010. Hair color: Blonde (i wish it was a different color but im not allowed to die it untill im 18!)
011. Eye color: Green.... when i get angry they turn blue
012. Where were you born? Norway
013. Where do you reside now? Gig Harbor, Washington
014. Age: 17
015. Screen names: Cortj123, Childofthekorn
016. E-mail addy: darkestthrill@kaxy.com
017. What does your screen name stand for? Courtney Jean (my first name and middle name, it took lots of thought! *yeah right*) I love Korn... well older korn.(issues, Follow the leader, Life is peachy, Korn)
018. What is your LJ name? Darkest_thrill
019. What does your journal name stand for? ... its sexual. Its like darkest desires...
020. Pets: None, i used to have 2 cats and a german shepard but we had to move to washington from indiana!
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? 17
022. Piercing? None
023. Tattoo's? None
024. Shoe size: 9 womens, 10 mens
025. Righty or lefty? Righty
026. Wearing: Invader zim shirt
027. Flip flops or shoes?: Shoes
028. Feeling: Happy, anxious, flirty
029. Eating/drinking: Ha... im going to get icecream later but nothing right now.

~Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? Im not sure... i think i was with than but he died. No really he did on January 24th, 2003. Fun isnt it? Tis life.
062. How many people have you told "I love you" to? alot... it was more like the "I care about you" love not the "I want to be with you for the rest of my life" love.
063. How many people have you been in love with? No clue.
064. How many people have you kissed? 20+ ha thats just an estimate
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? Yeah at a party. The classic spin the bottle kissing... lol.
066. How many people have you dated? 20+?
067. What do you look for in a guy/girl? It depends.
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair, Eyes, lips.
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for? tall, pail, long dark hair, gives me weird vibes... =p
070. Do you have a bf/gf? no... i wish i did. Im kind of looking.
071. If so where did you meet them? n/a
072. What do you like most about your bf/gf? n/a
073. Do you have a crush right now? Yes.
074. If so who is it?Padrig *hope i spelled that right ><*, Mike... there is some more but they arent as important to me.
075. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
076. Do you remember your first love? I will always remember him. He is dead. *tear*
078. Do you believe in fate? Sometimes i do. I always have these weird dreams of my life and hey come true and it scares me.
079. Do you believe in soul mates? Yes
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours? I hope so.... that would be sad if i didnt.

~Sex Stuff~
081. Are you a virgin? Why the hell would you ask that? No!
082. If not when/at what age did you lose your virginity? 15
083. Who did you lose it to? Josh. A wigger. He did like SOME rock though...
084. Do you masturbate? Too much for my own good.
085. Have you ever had an orgasm? Well i give myself some but most guys can give them to me.
086. Ever used food during sex?... no.
087. Would you ever videotape a sex session? I almost did but i havent been talking to him.
088. Favorite sexual position? missionary, guy on top
089. Number of sex partners you've had? 12... the number sort of caught up on me.
090. Ever sleep with someone you don't know? Yes.
091. Name a sexual fantasy you have actually acted out: Rape fantasy, Tied up.
092. Do you talk dirty during or before sex? Hell yes....
093. Do you like to be spanked? That kind of pisses me off. Id prefer to get bitten
094. Are you a tease? I can be...
095. Are you kinky? Oh yes you dont even know the beginning of it.
096. Do you like bondage? Yes but i havent had the chance to do much of it.
097. Do you go down?... Well... sometimes but i only like to do it when i am in the mood/when i want to. When they make me do it... i kind of gag. No really i do.
098. Ever have sex with your best friend? Yes
099. Ever have unprotected sex? im on birth control.... i have before... but technically isnt that protection? I dontreally like condoms but if the person i like wants to use one i will... im just so tight... *giggles*
100. Ever had an STD? No... Yuk. I get tested every month.
101. If you could have sex with any celebrity, who would it be? BRANDON LEE! ahh hes dead. Who cares. Okay, ew, that makes me sound like a necropheliac. *shudders* Who would want to fuck a dead guy? Wait is that even possible.
102. Are you pregnant right now? No actually im not.
103. Have you ever had an abortion? NO. Im pro choice but i have never had an issue.

~Family Stuff~
104. How many siblings do you have? 1
105. What are your parent’s names? Carl and Loueen
106. What are your sibling’s names? Derek
107. How many siblings does your mother have? 1
108. How many siblings does your father have? 1
109. Where are your parents from? Indiana,USA
110. Is your family close? Yeah sure why not. Generally, my dad just talks to me to yell at me to do something and when he isnt doing that its just hi, bye.. and my mom works ALL the time at seldens in fife.
111. Does your family get together for holidays? Not really. Most of my grandparents are dead. Oh and my most of my cousins have been in insane asylums.
112. Do you have a drunk uncle? No, my uncle has Diabetes....
113. Any medical problems run through your family? Depression, heart problems, insanity, diabetes.. quite alot isnt it?
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? I think my uncle does.Haha.
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? a neice(alexandria, 2)and a nephew (logan, 1)
116. Are your parents divorced? No. They have been maried since high school (27-28 years)
117. Do you have step parents? No
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? Yes. My aunt. Shes nuts.
119. If so for what? She abused my cousins.
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? IM norweigan! *damn i cant spell!*

~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? "Numb" Linkin Park
122. What's the most embarrassing cd you own? anti-flag. I dont like punk.
123. What's the best cd you own? The wraith, icp.
124. What song do you absolutely hate? Its getting hot in here... That stupid nelly song. Haha eurotrip makes fun of them. that song by nelly! I hate rap! Well i love icp....
125. Do you sing in the shower? Yes. lol.Hey i love showers! *okay so im perverted. SO what?*
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? I dont know yet.

152. Color: Red, black, purple, green (god red and black are becomming so cleche!)
153. Food: Spagetti, Japanese Food.. (ohhh sushi... *drools*
154. Song: numb: linkin park
155. Show: Futurama, Insoniac, Simpsons, Hellsing
156. School subject: Photography... Im going to study Culinary Arts soon.
157. Band/singer: Metal!
158. Animal: Jackels
159. Outfit: My hottopic shirts that hottopic doesnt sell anymore because hottopic sucks dick. lol
160. Radio station: 99.9 Kzok.... ROCK.. oh and 104.9 funky monkey.
161. Movie: The Crow.
162. Pair of shoes: Converse.. God i wish i had combat boots.
163. Cartoon: Futurama, Insomniac
164. Actor: Johnny depp
165. Actress: Christana Ricci
166. Potato chip: Sour cream and onion
167. Drink: Code red, Root Beer, Rock n Rye Faygo
168. Alcoholic drink: Chocolate Tequila. Vodka straight out the bottle
169. Holiday: Holidays are so depressing...
170. Perfume/cologne: none... well i like AXE its nice! but its for guys... it smells so good!
171. Pizza: Meat lovers
172. Jello flavor: Cherry
173. Lunch meat: Baloney
174. Board game: Payday, Checkers, Chess, Monopoly
175. Video game: Doom II ,Diablo II
176. Website: www.gothicpersonals.com! lol.
177. Book: Scary stories to tell in the dark
178. Computer game: Diablo 2
179. Number: 13, 44
180. Cereal: fruit loops
181. Comedian: Jim Carry is pritty funny...
182. Dessert: German chocolate cake
182. Disney character:... To happy.
184. Clothing store: Whatever i feel like wearing as long as it isnt Abercombie.
185. Pastime Activity: Rollerblading
186. Teacher: ...
187. Childhood toy: My bigwheel! lol.
188. Carnival game/ride: haha.... carnivals. Icp! lol.
189. Candy bar: 3 muskateers
190. Magazine: Not sure.
191. Salad dressing: Ranch
192. Thing to do on the weekend: dates.... its been a while.
193. Hot drink: Hot chocolate is okay but i have to put ice in it so i gues that defeats the whole "hot drink" thing.
194. Season: Winter
195. Sport to watch: Im too lazy to even WATCH sports
196. Person to talk to online: Mike(goth dude), Andy (juggalo),My ex, james.

~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets? Green
198. What color are your bedroom walls? haha green and purple
199. Do you have posters on your wall? Mommy says im not allowed to put stuff on the walls because it leaves marks!
200. If so of what?
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? Haha. Yes i do. I always have
202. How many pillows are on your bed? 3
203. What do you normally sleep in? Absolutly nothing. ^^
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: I dont wear pjs
205. What size bed do you have? ... ahh my brain hurts. I can fit 2 people on my bed. =p
206. Do you have a waterbed: used to but now its a box spring matress
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? Yes.
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? Yes.. i sleep like a rock... okay that was weird. I usually dont last long when listening to music.
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: Vampyre fading away.... Which is of course comming true after all of those dreams of him dissapearing. So depressing.... People always leave me in my dreams.
210. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: .... Yes .... *dont tell anyone its a secret!*
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? 2-3
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? No, just on my sides.
213. Do you have to share a room with any siblings: No, i feel like an only child.
214. Do you snore? my parents say i do but they fucking sound like someone sawing a log so i wouldnt be fucking talking.
215. How about drool? My god man. Why so personal? Ha when its a wet dream i do.... Hey i cant control my dreams.
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? Its a radio too!
217. What color is the carpet in your room? Light brown

~This or that~
219. Coke/Pepsi: Pepsi
220. Doughnuts/bagels: What kind of stupid fuck question is that? DOUGHNUTS
221. Day/night: Night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: ... I honestly dont fucking care.Wow that was a good waste of a minute of my life.
223. Heaven/hell: Neither.
224. Make love/have sex: Haha.... you can call it whatever the fuck you want either way you word it your still fucking each other. Make love is a term used when you actually care for someone.... i guess.
225. Coffee/tea: Coffee is ok..... If it has lots of sugar and whipping cream which pretty much makes it ice cream and its not really coffee anymore.
226. Hamburgers/hotdogs: Hamburgers.
227. Rap/rock: I like icp. I like Slayer. Who cares.
228. Britney/Christina: AHHH how dare you say those names around me now im going to have to gouge out my eyes and burn my fucking computer! Those names need to be bad words. lol.
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: Swiss. Much more uses. American cheese is disusting because its processed.
230. Real World/Road Rules: Fuck that shit. I only watch mtv for headbangers ball and viva la bam.
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: See 228..... AHhH!
232. Silver/gold: Silver. Dont even pull that silver bullshit on me neither. Why do people always mix up their fucking steriotypes? You kill werewolves with silver!
233. Nike/Adidas: Nike. I guess. I dont really wear that company anymore. VANS.
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: Im sorry i dont eat at mcdonalds beacause they spit in there food because they know they all work at mcjobs and they need to take it out on all of the yuppys in the town. TACO BELL. even though i havent been there forever!.
235. Sweet/sour: Sweet,
236. Punk/emo: Im sorry i dont listen to shit.
237. Hot/cold: Cold
238. Winter/summer: Winter
239. Spring/fall: Spring
240. Operas/plays: ... ive never been toeither but id say plays.
241. Read/watch tv: Thats a hard one.
242. Cd's/tapes: Cd's
243. Dvd's/vhs: dvds
244. Old/new: Old
245. Shorts/skirts: both. I only wear skirts for "special" occasions and id prefer not to get into that right now.
246. Pink/red: red. Pink makes me think of barbie. You know what i used to do to barbies. Imagine a toilet. Think of a barbie. Now think of me strapping m80's to barbies head and throwing it into the toilet. lol. I was such a special little child.
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: Black and white. I think its shows so much more detail.
248. Meat/vegetables: Meat
249. Mexican food/chinese food: Chinese food.
250. Commercials/infomercials: Uh. Those are like telemarketers. I dont like telemarketers.
251. Scary movies/comedies: Scary Movies
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: Bikinis
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: Are converse tennis shoes?
254. Dogs/cats: Cats.
255. Unicorns/fairies: Fairies...
256. Water/land: Land.
257. Sugar/spice: Sugar
258. Black/white: Black
259. ribbons/bows: what do i look like 4?
260. Chicken/beef: Chicken!
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: white
262. Cars/trucks: cars
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: SHAWN CONNERY james bond!!!!
264. Popcorn/pretzels: Kettle Corn
265. Hip/hop: ... ooh i like hips1 specailly on scrawny guys
266. Passionate kiss/peck: Passionate kiss. God i love kissing.
267. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: FAKE. I dont like FAKE.
268. Back rub/foot massage: I like messages... *moans*
269. Picture frames/photo albums: Picture frames
270. Pens/pencils: Pens
271. Beach -candel light dinner/ Fast Food- out on the town dancing: Candle light dinner sounds good.... Beach would be good for some sex.... lol... I cant dance very well.
272. chat on net/ talk on phone: Either or
273. Natural Birth/ C Section: Isnt there a phobia of child birth? I think i have it. If i think about having kids i get panic attacks. Id rather go through a C Section if i have to choose.
274. dump or dumped: Ive been dumped so much that i dont feel the pain of it anymore. So i dont care.
275. kiss and tell/ kiss and keep?:... im confused. I think kissing heightens sex. It all feels so good.......
276: numbers/letters: letters
277. hit by a car/ fall off a building: Fall off a building.
278. slow dance/fast dance: Slow dance
279. scaring or getting scared: Scaring
280. typing or writing: Typing.
281. true undying love without sex/ regualr realtionship, over in a year or two with sex?:
... If i loved someone i would want sex and i dont think ill ever last a year or 2 because i havent even had a relationship past 4 months and a week. Ill have sex with someone even if i dont love them because im atheist.
282. CAPS or lower case?: lower case because. CAPS LOOKS LIKE YOUR YELLING AT SOMEONE!! MUHAHAHA!
283. tv or radio: Radio
284. lounging on island or theme park?: Oh theme park!
285. bitching or rude: Im not a rude person. I can be very polite. I can bitch though. Just save the drama.
286. alone w/ everything you wanted/ surrounded but with little: Alone w/ everyting i wanted.
287. forgiving/hold a grude: i can get over things very quickly because grudges are annoying.
288. sight w/o hearing/ hearing w/o sight: Fuck that!
289. flowers or candy?: Flowers do last longer but candy is good.
290. do you choose to end or to begin? To begin

sLiT mY wRiSt

[19 Feb 2004|11:30am]
Thats a good music video website.. its free....
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Im tired of living with my fucking parents [19 Feb 2004|11:00am]
[ mood | crazy ]

I finally got Ungrounded! god damn, i cant wait till i get out of this god forsaken home, and my hell-on-earth druggy school! Too much fucking drama is bad fo one's health, dont you agree? Haha. Sitting in a library isnt my idea of fun but atleast i am able to write, this makes me happy like many other things. I need to stay off the goddamned phone tonight so i can talk to someone.... Im not tellin' who!. Sorry i am in a very weird mood, a mix between hyper/blah/horny so yeah. What a strange feeling! Im so glad this place has like no god damned people in it. So quiet! i luv it. Well it is 10-11 am. Im usually asleep right now but i had a chance to get a ride here... and my mom gave me money so i can buy lunch.... so guess its better than sitting on my ass at home playing a gameboy advance emulator and watching Scooby-doo *shudders* yes, i was that bored that i stooped to watching scooby-doo. Yes im scared too. Wait wow... i think im actually having a conversation with myself! *round of applause* okay i think im crazy. Wee! So fun. Being crazy is fun. w00t! lol.

<3 Courtney

3 CuTs| sLiT mY wRiSt

[18 Feb 2004|04:50am]
[ mood | bored ]

Im listening to Funky Monkey and singing the songs. ARent i pathetic? lol. Nobody is online! Grr.

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